Why do I Stay?
Mood:  don't ask

Walking along in this world there are many

twists, turns, and ups & downs. 

You learn you can only depend on yourself. 

You can't even depend on your

own heart most of the time. 

But once you've made up your mind

about something it's unshakable.

Even family and friends will let

you down from time to time.

But if you have a strong mind and will,

you can do anything.

You can try and try all you want.

But when you get nothing in return for

so long you finally have to try and fix the problem.

If that doesn't work you finally give up.

It's hard, I know.

But if you're not happy then ask yourself,

"Why do I Stay?"

Is it because you don't want to hurt the

person you're with?  Or because you're

afraid to be alone?

It's not an easy question to answer.

But would you rather go on being unhappy?

Or do you want to be happy living

the life you want.

Freedom
Mood:  not sure

I've loved and learned that you

can't trust your heart.

No wonder I Hate Everything and

Everyone right now.

Even my own life.

I don't like the way things are going.

But I can't see to stop this feeling of Freedom.

This feels so good.

This Freedom I speak of, is it really

supposed to feel this good?

When everyone around me

is hurting?

I don't even want to stay where I am.

But I have No Where to go

and No Way to get there.

 

04/10/06

Hurt
Mood:  down

He never listened to anything I said

and he lost me forever.

That's why I feel the way I do. 

He's hurt me so badly words

cannot explain.

Only my heart and head know

What I'm going thru.

I can't make anyone understand.

 

04/06/06